When hell is burning

Your back is turning

Next to me

To hold you still

Keep you free

Only God knows

I lied when I said I took a dose

You look me in my eyes

They’re full of tears

I’m not the one who cries.

So if this was not meant to be

And baby

I should set you free

Make your first step maybe

And leave me where the light meets darkness.

Make one step back

Unstable my track

Leave me right now

Don’t you ask me how

Do it, don’t look back

This is the massive attack.

I follow

Kissing your red lips 

They taste like wine

God, it feels so divine

But how much will this last?

A second? A week? A lifetime?

You already commited a crime

I belived in you at the very first sign

Believed that our planets will align

But then you left

Leaving behind an empty chest

And now I have to fill the void

But my soul is already destroyed

I gave you my heart

But you painted it black

It was your favourite color

In medicine they call it “dolor”

I would run and never look back

Cause the first day we met

I knew my soul will be shattered into small pieces

And you will leave my adrenaline 

Forever increased

And now I will build those walls again

So nobody can climb them 

Causing me pain

And I’ll forget how it made me feel 

Cause this wasn’t real.

Trei prapastii
A patra o privesc din picioare
Trei abisuri
Al patrulea plin de racoare
Trei adancimi
A patra stau in genunchi
Trei cimitire
Al patrulea e priveghi
Trei vieti
A patra pe langa
Trei izvoare
Si o mama langa.

Eu/Cine?

Eu/cine?

De sus in jos, capul imi explodeaza, crede ca ar fi in siguranta la spital si gandeste de unul singur. Ochii vor sa vada o alta realitate, distorsiuni, scurgeri, peste 100°, lumini. Urechile vor sa auda frigidere vechi, zgomote mult mai puternice fata de cat sunt ele, sau poate comploteaza cu mintea, care le cere asta. Buzele imi sunt amortite, parca ies fluturii prin ele. Pieptul, in piept vrea sa iasa acel ceva, doar cand vrea, si se zbate puternic din interior. Mana dreapta e amortita, se taie de undeva de la cot, cea stanga nu e afectata tot timpul. Stomacul se simte ca ulcerul fara pofta de mancare. Picioarele se misca mult, nu stiu de ce.

Grotesc

Grotescu-mi pielea de pe mine
Sa smulg o bucata de carne cu dintii
Din puroi si infectie
O picatura de saliva

Corp murdar
Suflet ranced
Mucegai imi tine pantecul
De cand l-a atins pe-al tau

O betie curata
Pentru un om mult prea murdar
Plin de sange
Cu un chip mortuar

Si sper la zi
Noapte si amiaza
Ca un cadavru
In plina metafaza.

Adio

Infime emotii
Navalesc in praprastie
Acolo sa te gasesc aruncata
Vag.
Si o privire pierduta.

Cu trupul neclintit
Doar in interior urland
Sters.
Sa nu te pot salva.

Inca o data traiesc
Ma revad prin tine
Mor.
Cu minte tulbure.

Un corp putrezit
O inima sedentara
Obosita.
Pentru cine am murit?

Scurs

M-as scurge prin robinet
Precum un preludiu lung
S-as face neclintit
Propriu-mi suflet chinuit

M-as scurge prin streasina
Ca apa imbacsita si mizera
Sa ma dizolv in canalizare
Nimic diferit de fiinta care-mi moare

M-as scurge precum o lumanare
Si m-as comporta ca ceara
As provoca durere
Pana la placere

M-as scurge lichid
Pe mal involburat
Si-as transpira transparent
O ceata si-un val